Knit soft packer

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I'm genderqueer, and one of my vague New Year's sort-of resolutions was to try to be more out with presenting as male when I feel male. I'm sure I remember seeing a pattern for a knit packer somewhere back in the day. I'd like to try it if I can. Money's pretty tight for me right now but I have plenty of yarn. I'm sort of paranoid about having to have the "well, I'm not exactly a girl or a boy" conversation with my family before I'm ready as well, and knit boy parts seem to have more plausible deniability ("ha ha, it's joke knitting! Funny, funny joke knitting!") than stuff you can buy online, which looks exactly like what it's meant to be.

When I look at patterns on Ravelry, I can only find one crocheted soft packer. I don't know how to do much more than a single crochet. Knitting would be much easier for me. When I look on Google though, I can't find anything useful amid the sea of Green Bay Packers knits. Does anyone know if something like what I'm looking for exists?